impending doom upon impending adulthood?

i am seriously getting more and more paranoid nowadays. i wondered whether it comes with the big "one eight". hmm, to me, being 18 is kinda like you had this "imaginary" boundary lifted slightly, so that you are granted a little freedom. BUT, we wouldn't be getting complete freedom until we're 21, that's the age that i actually accounted as an adult.

anyway, the big ONE EIGHT is just two days away. so, kind of looking forward to that.

unfortunately, i think i saw him again this morning. bloody hell man, i seriously freaked out because this time he sat at the bus stop facing the inside, which is where i was. f**k man. i am still not sure whether or not it is him, but still, it really scared the neraka out of me.

upon seeing him, i quickly walked away. then, i saw shadow of a person running towards me from the back. let me tell you, my heart stopped functioning for 2 seconds.

let's just say it's a auntie who almost missed her bus and i thank whoever it is that i need to thank.

i wonder whether this is a sign?

shit, i'm getting paranoid!!!