well, then it's no wonder that this year I haven't gotten into the mood of the celebration. yes, i bought new clothes -but that's a necessity for me- and yes, i helped my mother with some cookie-baking -but, that's just a responsibility i have as a daughter-
my friends were all very excited and looked forward to the celebration. sadly, even though i, myself are not in the mood, i try as hard as i can to be all cheery and happy for it.
how am i supposed to be happy to go through a celebration all about family when my family isn't complete to begin with?
i know i didn't completely forgive my father for landing our family into this predicament and all that, and i am still not ready to actually speak to him yet, but, i do wish for a family reunion dinner during the chinese new year. seeing that what i wish is completely impossible, then what is there to be look forward to?
